It’s Time to Stop F&%$ing Around with My Health
I’ve hit rock bottom
With so many good things happening in my life as of late, I can’t help but think it would be a great time to start documenting everything. If, when I was going through the days of bruising mental illness, I had mind enough to keep a journal, writing my memoir would be a much easier thing.
In the next few months, great things are happening: I am going to start teaching English as a second language at the University level in China, I’ll be starting research on my new nonfiction book about creatives and the creative process. During my time in China, I plan to travel extensively. The country is huge and there is much to see while I am there. My friend Maggie and I have a YouTube channel and podcast in the works.
The most important thing right now is that today I put a line in the sand. I posted some images of myself on Facebook shirtless to document the beginning of my journey to physical health. I have been farting around for two years since my heart attack and still have not lost the weight, brought my sugar down, or started exercising regularly.
The time has come to stop fucking around.
I am 55 years old. I plan to live at least another 30 years if my stent holds up if I can get my diabetes under control, and if I can lose some of this dangerous weight. Notice all the “ifs?” I WILL live a long time if I do things to get healthy, but if I don’t do something now, I have no doubts that I will die very soon. The heart attack should have been a wake-up call, but I guess my damn autistic brain can’t do anything until I hit bottom.
Well, guess what, I’ve hit bottom. I am 280 pounds and I feel like shit. My body is breaking down and until now, I haven’t done a damn thing about it but stuff my face with more food and drink another Coke.
I must be stopped!
I don’t want to go to China and stand in front of 100 young people a fat, sweaty man. I let myself get fat when I started taking antidepressants and antipsychotics and I never got thin again. Well, I take that back, in 2013 I was down to 200 pounds, but I was smoking 3 packs of Marlboro’s a day and not eating. I quit smoking and ballooned up again.
I can’t do that again.
The key here is to be healthy, losing weight will be a nice side effect. I want to be able to walk without my back hurting and my legs going numb. I want to take a flight of stairs without getting winded. I was to get my sugar checked and not be a diabetic level.
I don’t want to be a fat guy anymore.
No more fast food, processed foods, or sugar. I will cut down on the rice and stop eating so many damn carbs. I will do intermittent fasting and exercise daily. I will walk and do yoga. I will drink water and take my pills and supplements. I will make my body a temple and take care of it like my life depends on it, because it does.
Why do I have to get to this point to make real change? The same thing happened with my mind. It wasn’t until I was at the bottom of the deepest hole that I finally saw a way to live my life without my mind controlling me. Now I am the one in control, and nothing will ever make that kind of bitch again.
The same thing needs to happen with my body. I need to gain muscle and get my body in shape. I need it to be at peak performance. I need my mind and body to be in tune so that I can focus on my goals and finally see some success in my life. Big things are happening, and I need to be at my peak to make sure I can follow through.
Why expend all this energy to succeed if I can’t be around to enjoy it? I am sure my family would rather I be here to enjoy the fruits of our labor with them, and not deep in some hole in the ground. I have young kids who need a dad to be there when they go to college and when they live their best lives. I have a grandchild.
I have books to write, and I still want to be alive to hear people call me Dr. Weiland. I have businesses to start and countries to visit. I have food to try and people to meet. People still need to know what a great guy I am, and if only for my ego, I would like to find my 1000 true fans.
How can I do all that when I am not taking care of my basic needs? It’s time to stop fucking around with my health, and you are here to witness the beginning of the quest for good health and happiness.
Thank you for being here.
Great intentions! With exercising gradually building up in cardio and weights (if you have access to weights) will let you see results over a three month period. As far as eating, I think reducing your carbs by 50% would be very helpful. When you are hungry, eat raw vegetables and hummus. That will help a lot. Rice totally spikes your blood sugar so good to reduce or eliminate (that’s hard no doubt). You will accomplish your goals I am sure!!