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Writing is My First Love, But YouTube is Fun Too
Once I got used to looking at my own face, I found making videos was a blast
Now that I have been showing my face on my channel every day, it is getting much easier to look at myself. At first, I had such a hard time looking at my face and hearing my voice while I was editing, but now, I am starting to think that I may actually have a face for video.
I’m even thinking about showing my face more on my main channel when we really start launching those videos.
Once you get over the anxiety of thinking people are going to laugh at you, filming and editing YouTube videos is a whole lot of fun. With each video, I am getting better at putting these things together, and eventually, I may actually start releasing awesome videos.
I know right now my microphone isn’t the best, but as soon as I get a cable from Amazon, I am going to start using my Rode VideoMicro that plugs into the phone. Eventually, I am going to buy a good podcasting microphone, but don’t have that kind of money right now.
Right now, everything is exciting and it doesn’t feel like work yet. I hope I can carry that feeling for a while because I know many creators get burned out, and I may get to a point where it’s not as much joy in Videoland.
I know myself and my multipotentialite ways. I get excited about something in the beginning and as the project goes on and starts to be work, I lose interest. Writing was the only thing that I never got tired of and I hope this time it will be the same with this channel.
I really have cleared my schedule out so I can focus on my main channel (which I haven’t launched yet, but the work is ongoing), my Cringeworthy channel, and my writing. That’s it. I got rid of all my blogs, newsletters, platforms except for Medium and Substack, and anything else that was going to be a time-suck in the near future.
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I am really counting on my two channels, Medium, and Substack to keep me busy, maybe even for the next 5 or more years. I don’t plan on adding any more projects to my load because I finally want to be able to focus on a few things, instead of hitting everywhere like a shotgun.
For so many years, I took on way too much stuff and ended up not doing any of it very well. I was always scrambling for time to work on things and never found it. I was always behind and beyond the deadlines, and it was time I stop doing stuff in a half-assed way.
It’s nice knowing I am no longer behind and have the time to go slow and do my best work because that is the only thing that will see me to success, and so much of what I have been missing. That and a little obsession go a long way.
I am enjoying working on videos all day and leisurely writing a few hundred words every night. Who knows? After 5 years I may finally feel comfortable writing that book I always talk about. I’ve always thought there were a few books within me, just waiting to be let out. Maybe after working on a few things for a while, I will make the time.
Right now, the only thing I want to do besides write is make the best videos I can. I want it to turn into a full-time obsession because I love being creative and making videos wrings every last drop of creativity out of me. It does it so much that I have to spend my evenings recharging with a book or a few videos. Oftentimes I will read on Medium for a time and see what all my writer friends are working on.
Sometimes I just lay in bed in the cool air and let my thoughts take me where they will. I usually end up getting so many more good ideas from this little act of decompression. I guess when you give your mind nothing to do, it fills the space with all kinds of cool and unusual things. At least, it does for me.
And then, by the following day, I am recharged and ready for more fun creating. I couldn’t think of anything else I would rather be doing with my time now.